Just a thought

I think some times we all take for granted what we have in our lives. I know I do. probably not as much anymore after what happened to Bryan. I think, so what if we don't have very much money, at least we have enough to get by. and we have our kids and husbands to make us happy. so what if we don't have furniture, at least we have a house to protect us. so what if we have to get our car fixed, at least we have a car to fix. I think that if thous are going to be my worst days then I will take them. I know there are days like today that I get angry at the fact that Nash cries all day and I don't know why. or I have to clean poop out of the tub, but I am very great full that I have him in my life. After almost loosing Bryan I find myself not caring that I have to fold his close or pick up after him, I will do that all day everyday if that means that he is here with me. I hope that we can all remember to stop and think when things get tough, "is this really that bad." or "It could be worse." and be great full for everything we have even if it is not very much.

fun pictures

He sleeps in the funniest positions. so cute

here is the latest picture of our house. the finish work has started hopefully it will be done with in the next week then we can do floors and paint.

Charlie is such a good dog. I am sure he hates it but he just deals with it.

This is at nashs first birthday party. the did not get to messy but he sure did enjoy it.

We gave Nash a four wheeler for his birthday, he loved it. he is such a big boy

Nothing new...finaly

Well I really wanted to post some pictures but it is taking me to long to get around to it. As of right now there is nothing new going on....its about time. Nash had his first birthday on the 20Th of August. I really hate age one. he is walking and I really don't enjoy that either. but he is cute. Bryan also had a birthday is August. he is 60 now. OK just 29 but we can make fun of him a little. he is doing his rehab and that is all going great. he has lost about 15 lbs. since the heart attack. he looks so skinny. and the food is starting to taste better ;). He went back to work today to do some lite stuff and he is so excited. I know that he has been going crazy here with me. well because Bryan is doing better, I am doing better. I feel really good. and we are going to be having Lucy on the 20Th of November. Our house is coming along nice. Thanks to my dad who is finishing the roof. your awesome. and all the hard work that Bryans dad is putting in. there are also alot of people donating their time to help out. thanks alot. the interior doors and trim will probably go up this week. I am very excited. and the brick is all finished. well I hope to post pictures next time.

update

I feel bad I have not written for a while. Bryan came home on Saturday. he is doing OK. the clots are still there but he is on a few different medications to get rid of them. they make his back hurt every now and then so I feel really bad. things are looking up though. Nash will be one tomorrow. I cant believe it. I think that one is the worst age ever. he is suck a brat. if he is this bad I am scared to see what my girl will be like. as for me I think that I have reached the point of to much. the thought of something bad happening to your husband can really get to you. I know that he is going to be OK I just have a hard time getting those thoughts out of my head. and the things people say. We had a chance to meet the paramedics that where there to save Bryan. that was fun and I got a chance to thank them. one thing they said to Bryan was "when we first met you, you where dead" I really did not need to hear that. it was still nice. they where very happy to see him up right. well that is all. oh and the house is doing just fine. the brick is going up and the sheet rock as well.

Bryan again

for the past couple days Bryan has been complaining about some back pain. so this morning I called the Dr and they got us right in. they did a CT scan and found that he has about three blood clots in his lung. He will be in the hospital for about 4 to 5 days getting a bunch of medication to get rid of them. I pray so hard that will work. unfortunately he will be there for our 4 year anniversary. I am sure he will make it up to me. :) that is really all I know now. I hope to give better news soon. please keep him in your prayers.

Bryans update

I am happy to say that Bryan is home and doing well after only one week. I feel so blessed to have him here with me. it makes me angry that I cant get even close to finding the words to thanks everyone for there help. he had great nurses throughout his stay in the ICU, I could not have asked for anyone better. and he has a great Dr. and the paramedics that where there to help him are my heroes. they call him the miracle patient cause they can not believe how fast he recovered from such a bad heart attack. Bryan told me that he was just not ready to leave me and Nash yet. thank you for everyone who has worried Prayed and fasted for him and him family. I truly can feel the blessings. this really has opened my eyes. we are all happy to have him home and I think even Nash missed him a little. :) thank you everyone.

Bryans update on his recovery.

For those of you who don't know already, Bryan suffered a major heart attack wed. morning. I thank heavenly father everyday that we was home so that he could get the immediate help that he needed. other wise i don't think that he would be with us today. the ambulance crew had to shock him three times to get his heart to beat again. when we got to the hospital he went up and had a cath scan done to see what was going on. they found a block in his left vain by his heart that was not letting blood flow through. they cleaned it out and put a stent in to keep the vain open. I think the next few days will seem like forever to just see how he progresses. as of Thursday night he had opened his eyes and gave me a big old smile. that was the best feeling I have ever felt. he know I was there and I hope that gives him even more strength to recover faster. he is doing very well and the Doctors and nurses don't see any reason why he cant have a full recovery. I have to say this has been the most scary thing that I have ever been through, I am so great full for family that was there and every ones prayers. he is very loved and I know that he will be just fine. I hope that I can give even better new next time.
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